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but, Do I Want to Forgive?

 I have been struggling with Forgiveness as an act and as a philosophy for a while so I went in to see my doctor about it and the whole time I’m seated there listening to her, I’m thinking “it's not fair.” She’s talking about forgiveness and how it's choosing to accept what happened instead of focusing on what should’ve, that it simply means letting go and stepping into the present instead of anchoring in the past and don’t get me wrong, she’s right, I agree with her. But I still can't stop thinking, “do I want that?, do I just let go?” People think that not forgiving is anchoring into the past, and I’m here thinking about how I still feel like it happened this morning. If it really was in the past, it would remain there, like childhood memories or toys or childhood friends. But this, trauma doesn’t feel like that, it's like every day I go to the cinema to watch it happen all over again in 3D, every day. And she’s seated there across me saying, "let go?" "

Life Goes On

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  By this point my emote is ‘a guy that writes about things we already know and don’t really think about' and no shit Sherlock, the blog is called Basics. Anyways, one of those things happened again, I zoned out and life started reflecting. We all know that life goes on, or have at least used the ‘time waits for no man’ proverb in those primary school JESMA compositions (yuck), but do you ever really think about what it means? I know you know what it means, but do you ever really think about it? Life is the greatest show ever with extremely unprecedented twists and turns right thereafter WWE. But that’s the thing, life hasn’t been updated yet so you cannot pause or simply skip parts that you aren’t the audience for, you go through it anyways. A lot of resonance with life moving on is almost always attached to death and helping people that are grieving and that’s true but I think the more important part is to understand that life goes on even when you are alive. You see friend, li