Self Forgiveness, if that’s even a word.

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The world is a cruel place. And we are the world, committing cruelties like it’s our job.
But of all the pain that’s a byproduct of this cruelty, at least the ones we are sorry about, no one understands guilt better than the executioner. And no matter what you do, no matter what you say, no matter how you say it, (bet you were expecting another no matter, ha) No one will really ever understand how sorry you are. No one will know what it’s like for you when you’re drowning in guilt. At least not in as much accuracy as you do. And on the worse days, they won’t even believe you.
Only you know for sure that you are remorseful, only you really believe that it wasn’t intentional. Only you understand. It’s only fair that you be the first to forgive yourself. Yes, forgiveness doesn’t fix everything, but that first aid will you keep you alive. Of all the people in the world, you deserve your forgiveness the most. They don’t have to forgive you, but you do. It will mean way more when you forgive yourself. It will mean nothing if they forgive you and you don’t forgive yourself.
But again, if you do not feel sorry for yourself for being such a bad person and doing the bad things you did, then forgiveness isn’t what you are in the market for, you do not deserve it.

Remember, it’s alright to forgive yourself.

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