Self Gratuity

I do understand, really. To give because you get.

People attach reward to everything right? I mean why do something if it has no returns? I agree actually. But my problem is with the fail of acknowledgement to forms of reward that exist. Especially with deeds of decency and human welfare. 

There's a heart gratuity that comes with helping strangers, like orphans or street kids, it makes you feel better about yourself because little by little, you're doing your part to make the world a better place for the people you can. But here's the weird part, you will not let yourself feel the same amount of gratuity from helping people in your life. You see, I do understand the difference in ability. The orphan can't extend a hand back but your friend can, yes.

But that quote about holding yourself back from helping people because if you needed help they wouldn't do the same? You're probably right about them not going to do the same if you needed the help but if you can help them, why not do it simply for heart gratuity. Simply because you can and did it. 

If you think about it, this goes back to the quote about treating people the way they treat you, which is insanly ludicrous btw. People with negative energy don't need to bounce it off you, because he was an asshole doesn't mean you should be as well. The goal is to put out positivity as much as you can as often as you can. To help as often as you can even though you know they probably wouldn't do the same. (Maybe this is what changes them, maybe you helping them inclines them to help someone, not necessarily you but still.)

 There's a good amount of self positivity that comes with good deeds. Do not hold yourself back from helping when you can, simply because they wouldn't do it if reversed, that's really beside the point. This type of passive negativity ruins you, it chokes you.